The Judge Dread Of It All
Anyone else’s anxiety at an all time high?
Hello fellow reader of words, I’m back and anxious as all hell!
For the past few months, I have had an uneasy feeling that something bad was going to happen. I first charged it to the multiple cortados and weed, but this time I can only blame one thing: Trump.
I’m sitting here listening to news anchors discuss y’all’s president’s posts about destroying Iran, and I keep thinking, “He won’t really do it, will he?” And damnit if I’ve learned anything from the past ten years, it’s that this motherfucker is crazy and does whatever he wants with little regard to anyone. Knowing this grows my anxiety day by day and keeps my therapist paid.
I’ve been a big ass mess since Trump got back into office, and as I’ve said before, this feels like a terrible sequel that I didn’t ask for. His first presidency was new and uncharted. We knew he was an ass, but we didn’t know how bad it would be. Fast forward to 2020, and he ended his presidency with a mismanaged pandemic that did a number on us in multiple ways. What a finale! We voted, got him out, and we were done with the monster… or we thought.
Biden was in office, and we were all going to go back to enjoying our pre-Trump lives, but just like a post-credits Jason Voorhees, he showed he wasn’t done by staging the January 6th Insurrection. Who could’ve seen that coming? I didn’t. Stupid me was at brunch, completely unaware that we were being attacked from the inside like a bad Eggs Benedict. I couldn’t believe that he could organize his base with a few tweets. I also couldn’t believe that white people could turn the Capitol into their own personal American Ninja Warrior obstacle course.
We made it out of the woods. Sure, Trump never admitted defeat, but even the Republicans were done with him, and he was going to be prosecuted. Ha!. End of movie, roll credits, and enjoy that sticky feeling under your feet as you make your exit. Now it’s time to enjoy lower gas and grocery prices, no wars, and America being great again…
SIKE! Sit your ass back down, this is a double feature! His followers became Disney+ execs and wanted another Trump movie, and because it’s a sequel, it’s all explosions and destruction with none of the fulfillment we were promised in the trailers.
We’ve seen how bad it can get, and I can’t help but feel like it’s going to get a lot worse. Our monster is back, and he has a better concept of how to ruin shit, and a lovely coat of cognitive decline that nobody seems to want to talk about now. If only there were an opposing party to stop all of this madness besides writing a strongly worded letter or hollow talking points with no follow-up.
The little silver lining is that we are all in this together! I’ve lost a lot of confidence in the current Democratic Party, but I’ve been inspired recently by seeing people organize and push back on this fuckery of an administration. Every day, I hope today is when we Antz push back on these grasshoppers to take back our country and rights. I keep thinking this is the part where the bad guys finally lose, but here we are in a terrible Marvel sequel with no hero to save us.
This is spot on! I was doom scrolling last night as the deadline threatened by the President approached. It made me recall how stressed I was throughout this first presidency, how relaxed I immediately felt when Biden won, and how the anxiety returned the day DJT was sworn in. This has been a super long year, and the aspect of 3 is petrifying. Thank goodness we have the midterms and can vote to get a balance back in Congress (assuming those candidates also come with a backbone!).